Life of Bjoernar

Hi guys!

The day today has been nothing but a celebrating of the vacation. I've slept long, been chilling with my XBOX and just enjoying having vacation. Ah, it's good! That's what Christmas is about; doing what you want.

Still, I know I got a lot to do. First of all; I'm making a song. Second of all; I gotta prepare a Christmas gift. Last, but not least; I need to relax. These things is very important for me to do :-). I'll check if I get time to the gift afterwards. But you might wonder what kind of song I'm making. It's actually all about an experiment. I'm gonna try to auto tune myself, so I need a beat. It's easier to hear if I have a beat to work with. I thought it might be fun. Also, some of my friends probably would need it for their songs. Even though they aren't interested at all and got no enthusiasm for it, I need to be prepared. Some days they are very enthusiastic, and some days they aren't giving a damn inch about it. But if they're coming, I can't just say that I don't have anything new. There is just somethings in life you gotta do even if it doesn't have any purpose.

I kinda feel like an outsider sometimes. Some of my friends are gonna party this Christmas, but I'm not because I don't drink. I'm proud of not drinking, but the negative thing about that is that you're left alone when the other once are having fun. That's what confusing. To make one thing clear; I will not start drinking just to not become an outsider - h*** no! But, do you feel my confusion? If only there were a way I could feel like an insider and still not drink... Besides; you don't have to drink to have fun or to be social. In addition of that statement, there are a lot of kids who only party to show others that they're so cool by drinking. OMG. But honestly, I'll rather stay away from alcohol than trying to not be an outsider. Of course it's hard to be an outsider when you know that your friends are having fun without you, and calling you in the middle of the night during being drunk. I usually never answer those calls, because it hurts a lot! I don't wanna drink. I don't wanna be drunk, but what I want is to be looked at in the same way as the other once. Obviously it's not cool to hang around with a guy who says no to alcohol. My friends and I loose contact since I'm not at any parties. OMG it's so frustrating. I know when these parties are, so I'm gonna turn off my cell those days.

I'm not changing my life for being a part of something, even though it hurts. You shouldn't either.

 That's the only bad thing about Christmas; being an outsider. Besides that, it's all about enjoying the moments. Family, food, joy and more. That's what matters the most at Christmas. Of course it's too bad that I'm an outsider, but it's like a black corn in the white sand - you barely notice it. I don't think about it when I have all of the other joy at Christmas. That was a very random example, but still it makes sense... right?

Anyway, I'm done for today. Hope this were a great blog despite the fact that it's short. I need some time to make them long again, so I hope your satisfied with todays blog.

I'll see you later!