Life of Bjoernar

Hey y’all. :D

How are you? Sorry for not blogging these last couple of days. I’ve been celebrating my birthday and just being extremely tired. Yeah, my birthday was at March 15. The problem with birthdays is the money. What am I going to spend the money on? I got no clue. Well, actually I was thinking of buying a DJ-vinyl mixer kinda thing. I could need one of those.

I tried to do some improvements on my English skills. It turns out: my English sucks! Seriously, there were a lot of words I had a hard time with. Like saying the past-term of «to be». Things are way different than I imagine. God, my English sucks. I really gotta do an effort to make it better.

You know what. Today I got to think of an important thing. Even though I hate the social environment, there are actually some people that puts a smile to my face everyday. I’m, obviously, only thinking of the bad things in this town. I got friends. I got people who cares about me. And even if it only was one person standing there for me, I should be more appreciative. I got friends who’s waiting for me if I’m a little late. I got friends who cares about what I do. I’m not appreciating my friends enough. I gotta love them some more! :D

Right now I better clean up the mess in my room, so it’s possible to breath and move tomorrow. Oh, I didn’t tell you? I’m having a «gaming night» here tomorrow. It’s gonna be me, some of my closest friends and the computer. Oh yeah, we’re playing Call of Duty. Watch out world, here we come! Well, I suck at COD. But the most important thing is the fun during the gaming. I think it’s gonna be great. I’m just gonna need some transportation help to move a TV, a xbox, a computer, a sound-system and my awesomeness. Yeah, my awesomeness gonna be there tomorrow night. :)

I’m in a hurry, so I gotta go. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed todays blog as much as I loved writing it. :)

Hi guys.

I gotta say: this is the worst vacation I’ve ever had. Nothing has been alright beside the trip to Sweden. I’m ill, I feel guilty, jealous, lousy... I could keep on all day; I’m not feeling great. First of all; I’m ill, and that makes the entire vacation bad. Then my brothers girlfriend lost everything on her external hard drive. That’s what I’m feeling guilty about. We attached the hard drive to the xbox to watch film, but it said that the hard drive was empty. I’m blaming myself. It’s probably my fault, it always is. I’m not gonna tell you what the other things are, but you get the clue of why this is the worst vacation EVER.

Usually, I would tell you what to do in these cases, but this time I’m not sure either. What I’m gonna do is write everything down. Write down what’s bothering you and how you feel when feeling this way. Then you provide it to someone you trust, like a parent, brother, shrink... whatever. That’s the only suggestion I can come up with right now if you ever feel the same.

Ah great... I had to deny my friend to come over.... ARGH!!! That’s it, I’m out off here...

Hey guys!

How are you? I’m sitting in the living room just thinking. I’m thinking about the future. What am I going to do +++. There are a lot of unsolved codes in life. I’m actually stressed about the work I got this vacation. I wanna go to the alpine center, I need to do some work this week, I wanna relax.. you see where the stress and the anxious is kicking in? Hope you do, cause I don’t wanna over explain it. The point is: I don’t want anything to ruin my future or my fun. I know that both of these things might be ruined sometimes, and I don’t wanna put more weight on fun even though it’s tempting.

For instance; I wanna play the xbox right now. I can’t because I got work to do. So, the question is: am I going to play the xbox, or am I gonna work? The best thing for my future would be to work, but on the other hand, I have 5 days to do the work. That means, I can enjoy the xbox. Or can I? You see what I’m talking about? I’m literally picking up a fight with myself. I can’t win over myself. When I draw a conclusion, a part of me won when the other part lost. It’s like being in two football teams at once.

This is confusing to say without feeling that it’s over explained, but this is the fact of my everyday life. I’m here to tell you the story of my life, and there you have a part of it: over-complication. I have too much on my mind, too much to do, too large ambitions... I can’t fulfill them all. It’s time to shorten the list of needs. I don’t need to try so hard, but it will affect a dream. I don’t have to move to America, but it will affect a dream. Sometimes your dreams gotta be affected. That’s how it is. Everything doesn’t go as it plans. And when the plan fails, you need to move on with your life without getting stuck in the disaster.

No. When your dreams takes a turn, you gotta make new dreams out of the possibilities you have after the failure. By that way, you can accomplish something great again. If you don’t create new goals, you’re gonna end up saying that your life sucks, which it doesn’t. Not if you make new dreams. A short philosophy on dreams right there.

You know what? I’m gonna play some xbox. I got 5 days on the assignment. I can take an evening to play a video game. If I enjoy the rest of this evening, then doing some hard work until I’m done, I’m gonna be happy. If you enjoy yourself a little before working, you’re gonna have some energy to work. And when the work is done, you can enjoy yourself some more. The faster the tasks is done, the faster you get to enjoy yourself and the more time you get. I’m not saying that you should think of fun over work, depending on the situation and the time you got, but if you’re gonna make it anyway - do it! I’m going too... oh, my brother turned on the TV. He’s watching something else on the TV, so I can’t play the xbox. But you know what? Dreams changes, even if you don’t want it. I gotta change the dream right now. I’m gonna enjoy the TV instead. See? That’s how easy it is to use.

Take my advise, enjoy life, and I’ll see you later. :-)
 

Hey guys!

Ah, what a lovely day! It's Saturday, and I can take a deep breath into the ground for a while. Lovely. It's great to think about having two days off to relax a little bit. Even though I might need to do some tasks today, it's great to just have some days off.

By the way, I've made a blog for having a perfect day. You can check it out by clicking right here. I need to promote that blog somehow. I don't know where, but I guess I'll figure it out later. Anyway, go check it out. There's gonna be a new post on that blog every week. I'm not sure whether it's gonna be on a Friday or Monday. If you have some thoughts about it, let me know.

ARGH! This bothers me. I want to buy something, but I don't know if I should. I wanna by some XBOX 360 games, but I don't know if I might need the money later. This annoys me. I see something I want, but then I think about needing the money later. It's very, very annoying.

Well, I’ve been having a great Saturday, and I hope you have as well. You know what, I can’t do short blog like this. WTF! At least you know what I’ve done today. Trust me, the vlog will be on soon.

Hi guys!

What's up? This day has been nothing but fun! I asked one of my friends, Mattias (another Mattias, a cool guy at my age... sorta), to join me playing Call of Duty: Black Ops and Splinter Cell: Conviction on my XBOX. That was awesome! We played slit screen, doing some awesome missions on Splinter Cell. I never imagined that my Splinter Cell game was so awesome.

We were playing on a mission in St. Petersburg, Russia and were suppose to get away from a bunch of cops. We tried everything. We couldn't shoot them (we were unable to shoot them), so we thought we couldn't hurt them at all. Wrong we was. We could make them unconscious by hitting them. We were struggling a lot just to find out about that. We were thinking about a lot of logical possibilities, but the solution were so much simpler than that. I think Mattias agrees when I say that you have to think a little before doing something. Thinking logical isn't a bad idea, even though the answer is much simpler. We had to think a little logical when we got to the next mission. We were going to get into a bank or something without getting compromised. It took some time to be honest.

I think games like this is extremely fun. Getting around silently, solving problems wisely and so on is fun. That's why Tom Clancy's Splinter Cell: Conviction is one of the greatest game I know about. I'll definitely be reviewing this game. I'm not doing it yet, because I need to try it more. But you should look forward to it, because it's a great game.

OMG I had so much fun. I also had fun playing Call of Duty: Black Ops. We played this zombie thing which was extremely nerve wrecking. It was fun, but when the dogs came... SHIT! I was frighten!

This was just a short update about my day. This shouldn't count as a blog post, but it is. Don't worry, a better blog post is coming up tomorrow!

I'll see you later!

Ho-Ho guys!

So the Christmas Eve and the 1st Christmas day is over. Therefore I can go back to blogging again. Today I have no idea of what I'm gonna do. It would be so much better if I vlogged instead, cause then the action would happen while recording. That would be so great, to actually have something to show right a way instead try finding something to write. There's not enough by writing what I did today, and a little bit about something something important in our lives. Today I guess that I will be chilling a lot and just do whatever I want. There's gonna be a h*** of a day tomorrow, when I have to sell tickets for a party with my friends (which is a party I won't attend to even if I could). Well, since I wrote that in the "Blending In Without Blending It", I can add that I got some really supportive friends. Most of them supports me for being a person saying no to alcohol. Those friends I like to call "My Best Friends".

The real, best friends comes from those who actually care about you. It's OK to have a friend who only likes to play video games with you. That might be cool, but that's not who your best friend is. Your best friend is the one who supports you at those things that sucks, and who really cares about you. You need to support them as well, otherwise the other person won't support you. That's why I have a hard time telling who's my best friend(s). I really supports a lot of people, but they don't support me back. Therefore, they're not my best friends. That means that there is only a few persons I call "Best Friends". Your best friends isn't those who says: "I love you", a million times. Those you might just forget. A friendship is based on trust and being there for another one. If those simple things are missing, then forget it; it's not a friendship of a best friend.

You know, that's why I've been so skeptic about who's my best friends. Sometimes when you really think about what a best friend is, maybe the one you though was your best friend isn't. What people often associate a best friend with, is if it's possible to do something fun with him. That's what people think when they're trying to find out if this person really is your best friend. So for now, I'll just wait and see who really is my best friends. Luckily I've found some of my best friends. Now, this might be the only best friends I got. If it is, I'm really glad to have those best friends I got. They mean the world to me.

Let me know what you think a best friend is all about! The comments are free for all, so comment now!

LOL, I love "Home Alone". The first "Home Alone" movie is great. Kevin, the little kid left alone at home for Christmas, has some really funny expressions sometimes. For instance, when he's screaming in the bathroom. I think "Home Alone" is one of the greatest Christmas movies made of all time, after my opinion. There is this Christmas movie they always broadcast on NRK (our oldest TV channel as I've said earlier in my blog). It's called Cinderella and the three... nuts... x ). Anyway, a lot of people in Norway says that this movie is the best Christmas movie of all time. I kinda disagree. First of all; it's dubbed from Czech to Norwegian, where all of the characters (including the females) has the same man voice. Dennis Storhøi has a great voice for the dubbing, but I think the whole idea of dubbing the movie (and dubbing it like that) really is weird. Second of all; Home Alone is so much cooler :-D! It's a random fact, OK? :-D

You know that I've been telling you about me wanting to buy a Macbook Pro for a while? Well, dreams are about to become reality! I am finally gonna get myself a Macbook Pro 13 Inch, and I'm so exited about it! I've been saving money for a while now, and now I'm almost done. But my dad said that I couldn't wait for it anymore, so he said that he's paying the last part I haven't got yet (which I later will pay back). That's just too kind to do. So that means that I'm finally getting one. I hope I can order it in time to get here before the school starts, but I don't think I will make it. But it's all about ordering it and getting it as soon as possible that counts. I believe that I've bee very patient about the Macbook (even though I'm nagging about it all the time), so I don't want to wait any more. I'm really looking forward to buying it! I wouldn't be able to buy it now if I bought what I was supposed to buy to the XBOX 360, so it kinda saved me. I can't imagine pissed I would be if I had bought those things I were suppose to buy to my XBOX 360.

This was a long blog post, wasn't it? It's starting to come back. Well, I'm ending todays blog right here, but don't worry; I'm back tomorrow!

I'll see you later!

Hi guys!

The day today has been nothing but a celebrating of the vacation. I've slept long, been chilling with my XBOX and just enjoying having vacation. Ah, it's good! That's what Christmas is about; doing what you want.

Still, I know I got a lot to do. First of all; I'm making a song. Second of all; I gotta prepare a Christmas gift. Last, but not least; I need to relax. These things is very important for me to do :-). I'll check if I get time to the gift afterwards. But you might wonder what kind of song I'm making. It's actually all about an experiment. I'm gonna try to auto tune myself, so I need a beat. It's easier to hear if I have a beat to work with. I thought it might be fun. Also, some of my friends probably would need it for their songs. Even though they aren't interested at all and got no enthusiasm for it, I need to be prepared. Some days they are very enthusiastic, and some days they aren't giving a damn inch about it. But if they're coming, I can't just say that I don't have anything new. There is just somethings in life you gotta do even if it doesn't have any purpose.

I kinda feel like an outsider sometimes. Some of my friends are gonna party this Christmas, but I'm not because I don't drink. I'm proud of not drinking, but the negative thing about that is that you're left alone when the other once are having fun. That's what confusing. To make one thing clear; I will not start drinking just to not become an outsider - h*** no! But, do you feel my confusion? If only there were a way I could feel like an insider and still not drink... Besides; you don't have to drink to have fun or to be social. In addition of that statement, there are a lot of kids who only party to show others that they're so cool by drinking. OMG. But honestly, I'll rather stay away from alcohol than trying to not be an outsider. Of course it's hard to be an outsider when you know that your friends are having fun without you, and calling you in the middle of the night during being drunk. I usually never answer those calls, because it hurts a lot! I don't wanna drink. I don't wanna be drunk, but what I want is to be looked at in the same way as the other once. Obviously it's not cool to hang around with a guy who says no to alcohol. My friends and I loose contact since I'm not at any parties. OMG it's so frustrating. I know when these parties are, so I'm gonna turn off my cell those days.

I'm not changing my life for being a part of something, even though it hurts. You shouldn't either.

 That's the only bad thing about Christmas; being an outsider. Besides that, it's all about enjoying the moments. Family, food, joy and more. That's what matters the most at Christmas. Of course it's too bad that I'm an outsider, but it's like a black corn in the white sand - you barely notice it. I don't think about it when I have all of the other joy at Christmas. That was a very random example, but still it makes sense... right?

Anyway, I'm done for today. Hope this were a great blog despite the fact that it's short. I need some time to make them long again, so I hope your satisfied with todays blog.

I'll see you later!

Hi guys!

Today I've been taking it easy. I woke up at 1 PM, and ate some breakfast before I was making gingerbread with my brother and my mom. It was really nice to gather together and do something. We aren't doing a lot together when my brother is here, but today was really great. Now I just had dinner with my brother, because my mom isn't home till late. I gotta say: you get really stuffed after eating Mexican.

So what's up now? NCIS is on TV. It's a very, very good show. It's extremely exciting. What's funny is that Agent Gibbs is just appearing randomly everywhere. I just got to LOL when that happens.

Seriously, tell me something. What do you want this Christmas? I kinda wonder what people wish for Christmas this year. Do people want things for their health, games, clothes or what? I kinda want to know what's the latest news within gifts. Here in Norway there are a lot of commercials about games for Nintendo Wii. Is that something that's up now? Nintendo Wii? Wii was like at the bottom of game consoles for a while. Xbox 360 and PS3 was revolutionizing Nintendo Wii. Many of my friends have tried the Nintendo Wii and they say that it's fun, but is easy to get tired of after a while. What really makes me want to say that this is a good product, is because of Wii Sports. If you take the tennis game for instance, it's quite amazing that your movement is the avatars movement. But on the other hand; XBOX 360 has released Kinect, which is almost the same. Even though I would compare Kinect with the "Eye Toy" from PS2, is it pretty much the same. But I can't understand why Kinect hasn't been more promoted than Nintendo Wii. I don't know how this is in other countries, but it seems like they're promoting Nintendo Wii more than XBOX 360 Kinect. I'm not saying that Nintendo Wii is not worth buying, but like I said, I'm surprised. So, are Nintendo Wii what people want? Leave a comment if you got some opinions.

I think that's it for today. I was reading a long blog, and forgot what I red. So I should try not to write so much. But stay tuned, cause I'm back tomorrow.

I see you later!