Life of Bjoernar

Hi everyone!

As you could see on yesterdays blog, it’s kinda stressful these days. I got a lot to do these last 5-6 weeks before the easter. I hope it’s gonna be possible to get a little calmer this weekend and at my birthday. Yes, my birthday is at the upcoming Tuesday.

So today I’m obviously gonna dance some old Norwegian folk-dance kinda thing. I don’t know what my reactions are about that. I’m not exactly looking forward to do it, but at the same time: how bad can it be? It’s just a session of 40-45 minutes. I can survive 45 minutes of folk dancing. I don’t have any huge fears of dancing anyway, so it’s fine. It’s like any other work I do. I gotta do it even if I don’t like it. Dancing this folk-dance is just like another task at work. I don’t look at this session like it’s the end of the world. I think I’m gonna be just fine. :-) Well, I’m writing this in the morning, so I guess I’ll be updating some more when I’m coming home again.

This day has been pretty good, actually. The folk-dancing didn’t go that bad, but there is a lot of work to be done. I can’t blog too much today. I gotta get done with my tasks really, really fast.

I gotta new quote: stress for less :)

Meaning: I’m out off here :D

Hi guys.

You think the mood is any better? Bite me if it is. Seriously, I’m tired of all the things that bothers me. If only I could stop it.

Well, a blog is a blog; you gotta do it sometimes to keep the interests alive. I do got one thing that’s great. I heard Alexis Jordan on the TV today. She were on a Norwegian talk show, and sang the song «Happiness» at the end of the show. She’s pretty good. I’ll definitely buy her debut album when it releases. I don’t know whether to buy it on iTunes or for real, like a CD. I think iTunes is the best. I got a Macbook, I got a iTunes account... it’s not like I’m gonna throw away my Macbook next year or something. So I guys I’ll buy it on iTunes. I’ve never done it before. Kinda cool, I guess. At least you got some good things out of me. :-)

You know, maybe it’s just me not being able to be positive right now. When I think about it, I can let the thoughts stay at the side for a moment. But I guess it’s hard to leave them. The assignment I got I think isn’t gonna be done until Friday next week. That gives me 7 days more. The other things that bothering me: those things have been bothering me for some time now. I just got to think about them this week. It hasn’t bothered me a lot before. Why is it coming now? Is it my own fault that things are what they are? Whatever it is, it’s time to let it go. Life goes on. I can’t waste it on some bullshit that’s been going on for a long time without bothering me. Sorry for using the word «bullshit» online, but I’m dominating myself! I’m me, and nobody else are. The person I am every day, is me and no one else. Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls: I think I’m finally am back!! :-D

Now, to prove it I wanna thank all of my readers for clicking in and checking in my life. You obviously care enough to read my blog, and I hope you’ll keep reading. When the video blog is up, it is for real. That’s when my dreams are becoming reality. I love you all. Peace to you all! <3

Hey you guys!

What’s going on? This day has been kinda bad and kinda good at the same time. The bad thing is that I’ve been ill all day. I thought I was gonna puke several times today, but luckily I wasn’t. I tried to go to the club once, and it worked out kinda great. I didn’t feel so ill now. Tomorrow I’m doing my presentation - FINALLY! God I’ve waited for a long time.

I obviously got influence on a girl I know. She reed my blog and wanted to do a blog herself. I’m awesome, damn. I’ll promote her page as soon as she gets going with it. I’m not promoting someone who’s not into blogging. The blogger gotta have passion for the blogging. Not just blogging to get noticed. Lol. I don’t. I’m just writing because it’s the best way to think. I think better when I write than if I’m just thinking.

I met a writer today, who write books. No shit? Anyway, she was kinda cool. She told me that she were playing World of Warcraft. I’ve never met a 50-year old writer playing World of Warcraft. Lol. It was kinda fun to meet her.

OMG, the nerves for the presentation kicks in now. Why now? OMG. The presentation could be done any other time of the week, and the nerves also could have come earlier. What the heck? It doesn’t make sense. Did I always know that the presentation was going to be tomorrow?  I usually don’ believe this kind of deja vu, but maybe it does. I don’t like this. But I got some ways to calm down the nerves. Do you wanna know? Well, you don’t actually have any choice. :-)

I’m sure there is a lot of good tips about calming your nerves, but there are some simple things that’s easy to accomplish. First step is to breath slowly. When your nervous, you might be breathing pretty fast. Try slowing down on your breathing. Inhale a while, hold, and exhale slowly. That’s the basic tip. You also have methods like listening to relaxing music, count slowly to ten, sleep and have some fun. What you wanna do is to remove all thought about what’s making you anxious. Try thinking of something else, and by doing what I said will make you think about something else.

I’m really nervous for the presentation tomorrow. What I’m gonna do is to sleep, reduce amount of coffee (that’s gonna be a hard one), listen to some relaxing music, breath slowly and count to ten. Well, I can’t guarantee the anxiousness to disappear, but it’s gonna help you. Trust me. This doesn’t only counts when being stressed out or anxious. We all need to calm down a little, even if we’re extremely calm. You can always be calmer and more relaxed.

I gotta go right now, but I hope you enjoyed todays blog. Take it easy (got it?). :D

Hey you!

Today I had to do some assignments that has to be done by tomorrow, so I’m kinda stressed a little. I sat down for a moment and thought about how much I actually care about my future. I’m working my ... off just to have a good carrier. It’s like nothing else than my future matters, but that’s not entirely true. A carrier isn’t the place you seek happiness, but it’s a part of your happiness. I feel that I have to get a good carrier to have a good life, but that doesn’t make sense. Love to friends and family is where happiness comes from. Doing what you want is where happiness comes from.

The carrier should only be a part of surviving, but in my case it’s more than that. I know I can be happy without having a great carrier, but my brain obviously doesn’t. I’m not gonna stop getting a good carrier, but the fear of not becoming happy if I don’t have a good carrier is there. That’s why I’m working as much as I do. I can’t remember the last time I played my XBOX for instance.

I’m not complaining, but I’m sharing information you need. Your carrier isn’t everything, but it is a part of it. My biggest ambitions is to move to the United States of America. I don’t need the best carrier in the world to be able to move there. My point is: your happiness doesn’t come from your carrier, but do your best to get a good one. After saying all of this, I won’t change the way of working. I’m gonna succeed, but if I don’t do it well, I’m not gonna let that ruin my happiness. You get it? It’s the «after-effect» I don’t want to fear. That’s the main point.

Seriously, I checked flight ticket costs yesterday to Phoenix, Arizona. I checked the costs of hotels and I was about to search for apartments until I understood that it’s crazy to start searching now. I’m not sure if I wanna stay in Phoenix, but I searched it anyway. I’ve been to Phoenix, Arizona and it’s damn hot. Anyway, I’m kinda excited about the wish of moving to USA. What I’m probably will do is to move there for a year, go back to Norway for a year and if I miss the USA (which I probably will), I’ll move back. I don’t wanna move immediately if it seems like I ain’t gonna like it.

Argh, I can’t stop thinking about the video blogging. I gotta start soon. Why haven’t I started yet? I wanna vlog, now! I gotta find a name for the vlog if I’m gonna start. I can’t call it «Bjoernars vlog», I’m not satisfied with that. No one has participated to the contest of finding a name. Well, no one wants to win. If you have an idea, comment on «Win a Secret». I think I posted it in January. I was thinking about calling it Brilliant! , but there was some sort of an art group with that name before. I don’t know if it’s legal to use that kind of name if someone else has had it. Give me suggestions!!!

Well, that’ it for today. Stay tuned for more, and I’ll catch up with you.
 

Hi!

Sorry for not blogging in three days, but a lot has been up. Internet disappeared, dogsledding world championship and stress. Yes, that’s three weird reasons why I haven’t have time to blog. I just hate when the internet disappears. The dogsledding world championship weren’t very exciting, to be honest, but that’s just me. Stress is lame, enough said. So there you go.

I’ve been stressed out today as well. I’m afraid that my presentation I’m gonna have next week is gonna fail. I have a doubt that my content isn’t enough/good enough. Dislike. But I’ve tried to chill out a bit today. I’ve played some online games (in other words; waisted my life), watching the TV and eaten some sort of a traditional Swedish «dinner-cake» dish... yeah. It tasted pretty good though. The most impressive part about the cake, is that my dad baked it. It’s a large «cake» covered in slices of lemon, shrimps, salmon +++. It’s actually quite good. It’s not a sweet taste. It’s something you could eat for a dinner/lunch at a café or something. It’s good. I’m gonna try some more later.

I reed a «Facebook-like» today, and it made me realize how stupid racism is. I’ve always thought racism is stupid, but today it made racism look even more idiotic.

It said:

«Your car is Japanese. Your Vodka is Russian. Your pizza is Italian. Your kebab is Turkish. Your democracy is Greek. Your coffee is Brazilian. Your movies are American. Your Beers are German. Your shirt is Indian. Your oil is Saudi Arabian. Your electronics are Chinese. Your numbers -Arabic, your letters -Latin. And you complain that your neighbor is an immigrant? Pull yourself together! like if you're against racism.»


That is soooo true. There’s no point of being racist when everything you do, use +++ is from another country. The racists may try to make up their own numbers, letter, dishes and ways to get around. The racists are basically hating themselves. I’m against racism. It’s like I gotta say: «Sorry that people live in the world» and «sorry that your country doesn’t invent everything». Lame, huh? No one is better than others. People are people. Let them be that. 


OMG... I made this blog and forgot to blog it on Saturday. Now it’s Sunday 12.12 AM. Lol. Well, talk to you later.
  

Hi guys!

What's up with you? I'm feeling extremely happy today. I don't know why, but I do. Today has been very relaxing. There's been a minimum of stress and a good day to be happy at. I can't stop thinking about my Macbook Pro which is on the way to my arms. I'm so excited! I feel very positive about working hard these last 6 mounts I got left here. I'm getting assignments I feel good about and just know that I got the strength to work hard. I see other people being annoyed by everything today, while I'm just having a good time. Too bad that they can't be happy. Someone's always annoyed. But I don't get influenced by others anger, depression +++. I'm happy, don't deny it! :-D

There was a dog running by our house for a while ago. I was checking if someone were going for a walk with it, but it was the dog all alone. I tried to whistle after him, but he didn't come back. I wonder who owns him. There aren't a lot of people living in this town, so I would probably know the owner if I only knew who it was.

OMG I love Katy Perry. Suddenly I like here music. It's weird. The first time I heard her, I didn't like her. My mind change after I heard "Firework", "Teenage Dream" and "If We Ever Meet Again". I guess I'm changing some more. Anyway, she's awesome. I used to be all about metal and such thing, but now I'm actually into Katy Perry, Taio Cruz, David Guetta, Rihanna and more. That's a good thing. I can't live with metal, and only metal. Therefore it's good that I listen to other genres and fall in love with them as well. So as you know, Katy Perry is the greatest for now.

I seriously want to move to the United States now. I think I'm gonna try living there for a year or two maybe, and see if it's something for me. I can't move without trying to live there first, can I? I don't know where in the US I should move in that case. I was thinking about Phoenix, Los Angeles or New York. I like the city (also some nature environment depending on what kind of nature environment), therefore it's natural to live in a city. If some of you got some ideas of great places to live in the US, tell me. I wanna know so I can consider it. Why US, you might ask. The reasons for wanting to move to the US most be because of the opportunities the USA has, the large range of items (like we don't have in Norway) and because the way the wealthy Americans live. It's hard to express all of the reasons, but moving to the US feels right (and tempting).

If I move, I know at least that my life in Norway has been wonderful. I'm not moving yet, so I can't say this too soon. But I know that I got friends standing up for me when I need it. I always has someone to turn to if I need it. Despite that I haven't been the nicest, coolest and greatest human on earth, I always have someone to turn to. That means a lot. When I wonder about something, someone always answers. When I need comfort, someone always gives me that. I know the greatest people in the world. Not because they're Nelson Mandela or something, but because they are there for me. If and when I move to the US, I know that I've left a place where people care about me. And that I can return with the smiles I got before I went. I've felt sorrow, disappointment, anger and stress. But what I've also felt is happiness. That's what left in my mind. Everybody goes through all these difficult things, but your happiness will be in your mind forever. I love the people that care about me. Thank you. You mean the world to me.

When I was younger I thought I had no one to turn to if I needed it. I thought no one cared about me, and that I was just a background. I was wrong. Very wrong. I guess I didn't take time to think. I got a lot of people to turn to. So do you if you feel the same way as I did. Just think about who you talk to every day. Who do you smile to? Who do you admire? These persons is there for you. It might just be a song that makes you happy. It saves your day, and it counts as someone who is there for you. But you don't care about this "friendship" type of talk I do, so I'm gonna stop.

You know, tell me what you want on the blog...

I'm done for today, I gotta get up early getting out of town.

I'll see you later!

Hi guys!

The day today have been just awesome. Despite the little test we had today, everything went just fine. First of all; me and my band were asked to play at the prom. Oh yeah! I just hope we can accept it. The other peoples in the band got to accept it to. So I shouldn't get overexcited, but it's great to be asked. I've actually thought about wearing a white smoking. Anyway I've been playing Need for Speed Most Wanted with a couple of friends drinking the best soda at Christmas time. The name is pretty creative, or not. But still it's incredibly good. It's called "The Christmas-soda". Creative, huh?

OMG it's almost weekend! This weekend I'm gonna celebrate my mothers birthday. I'm really looking forward to it. My brother is coming home, we're gonna gather together and just enjoy the weekend. It's gonna be great. If I get some time without doing anything, I'm gonna watch some real American football! I think I'm gonna watch San Jose State vs. Idaho. Shay Carl is going to that match, so I want to see the match myself. Maybe have my eyes at the same person that Shay Carl does at the same time. Yes, I do think like that sometimes. The match starts at 11 pm (+1 CET) and ends at 02..30 AM (+1 CET), in case you want to watch it.

I got to know what the next week contained. I was really afraid that I had to do a lot of things that stresses me. But the big surprise was that tomorrow and the next week doesn't contain any type of stress at all! I'm able to relax, take it easy and enjoy this week. Are you stressing a lot these days? I hate the stress that hits me every single week. But this week and the next week, there are none. NONE AT ALL! Hurray!

I got nothing else today. But I hope you enjoyed todays blog. I'll see you later : )

Hi guys!

It's December 1st, and my first impression of this December is based on cold weather. It unbelievably cold outside, and inside as well. The winter last year was incredibly cold to. I want to remember Christmas time with a snowy weather and a little bit of low temperature. Right now it's unbelievably cold and there is just frozen snow on the ground. I don't like that at all. For those of you who don't knows what I'm talking about, be glad you don't. Be happy about where you live, because temperatures like this is insane.

So far this weeks kept being terrific. No stress what so ever, and everybody is being happy and friendly. Well except a couple of people, but someone never learn. So that's what you just gotta deal with. Now that the Christmas time is coming around, it's fun to see everybody talking to me such. I have high expectations for this Christmas. I just hope everything will be alright. I'm going to a prom in a little more than two weeks from now by the way. I think that's gonna be fun. I don't have a date or something (as far as I know), but who cares if I don't. I'm gonna have a lot of fun anyway! The thing is that if I ask someone to join me it's gonna be very awkward or denied. Who wants to go to the prom with me anyway? I'm not exactly popular and not playing soccer. But it's nothing I really think about every single day.

Just because something has a premiere, doesn't mean that it's good. I actually understood that after watching a show on the TV. I literally hate that show from now on. It were some kind of a show where a woman helping others getting a job. Great that someone does that, but it kinda sucks. It's great that she does it, but there are no needs to broadcast it on TV.

Well, some blogs aren't that long. Neither is this, but tomorrow I promise to write more. So keep checking out my blog, and I'll see you later!

Hi guys!

When I realize that I had the "Stats" button to look at, I actually saw that there is a lot more people reading the blog than I expected. Wow, thank you guys! It's like people from the US, Canada, Hong Kong, Sweden and a lots of other places. I though I was writing bad English to myself. I was wrong, so thank you very much! : )

So how did the most horrible day of the week go for me? It became a great day I must say. First of all; the school day today was like eating a piece of a cake. Easy and sweet (Mm, yummy!). After I was at school, I practiced with my new band. I guess I never told you... woupsy! Anyway we did great, so we're gonna play live at a contest in town right after Christmas : ). If the other guys allows it, I'll be recording it and put it on the blog : ).

Anyway, the guys I'm playing with are awesome! They are super musicians, and when the only option becomes the greatest option, then God bless : D. If they had blogs, I would promote them right away. But they don't...

So, the songs we are (probably) considering is:

     * Nirvana - Smells like Teen Spirit
     * Green Day - 21 Guns
     * The Beatles - Twist and Shout
     * Takida - Broken (Broken, jaded, who cares!)
     * ... and some other.

If you have a suggestion on for a song we can play, let me know!

When I got into the house today, it was really warm and free : ). The entire house is decorated for the Christmas. It's a beautiful sight. Do you think people are decorating for Christmas earlier than before this year? It's not necessarily something wrong with that, but don't you agree? Maybe it's just something we do here in Norway. There is something special about us Norwegians. You know why? I just watched a TV-show where a guy wants to upgrade something a civilian has if they answer the question right. Someone on the street lost 1500 Norwegian kroner ($242 US) because of a wrong answer. OMG, how unlucky!

I think these two weeks are gonna be just fine. I got no specific type of stress I know so far. So if this week lives up to my expectations - YAY!  It's just incredibly awesome when I got no stress. Stress can kill you, seriously (perhaps). Usually these past weeks, the stress came 6 days before the tasks had to be done. Is this a mental thing? It's not fun to stress 6 days before something's gotta be done. So I hope this is gonna be kinda relaxing : ).

I'm so happy : D! I don't know why, but I'm happier than I've been in a while : ). I just feel like smiling every time I wake up these days, so stress isn't affordable this week. OMG I love this couch. OK, now I'm beginning to be random. That's not good.

Thanks to me being random, I think this is it for tonight.

I'll see you tomorrow - I Love You <3