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Hi everyone! I'm Bjoernar, and I want to welcome you to my blogsites! Basically, I'm into vlogging (video blogging). But since I'm doing video blogs, why not doing blogs to? I hope you'll enjoy my blog later, because this sites looks like shit right now. Anyway, I'll see you later! :'D
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Sunday, February 6

The Fear of Failure

Hey you!

Today I had to do some assignments that has to be done by tomorrow, so I’m kinda stressed a little. I sat down for a moment and thought about how much I actually care about my future. I’m working my ... off just to have a good carrier. It’s like nothing else than my future matters, but that’s not entirely true. A carrier isn’t the place you seek happiness, but it’s a part of your happiness. I feel that I have to get a good carrier to have a good life, but that doesn’t make sense. Love to friends and family is where happiness comes from. Doing what you want is where happiness comes from.

The carrier should only be a part of surviving, but in my case it’s more than that. I know I can be happy without having a great carrier, but my brain obviously doesn’t. I’m not gonna stop getting a good carrier, but the fear of not becoming happy if I don’t have a good carrier is there. That’s why I’m working as much as I do. I can’t remember the last time I played my XBOX for instance.

I’m not complaining, but I’m sharing information you need. Your carrier isn’t everything, but it is a part of it. My biggest ambitions is to move to the United States of America. I don’t need the best carrier in the world to be able to move there. My point is: your happiness doesn’t come from your carrier, but do your best to get a good one. After saying all of this, I won’t change the way of working. I’m gonna succeed, but if I don’t do it well, I’m not gonna let that ruin my happiness. You get it? It’s the «after-effect» I don’t want to fear. That’s the main point.

Seriously, I checked flight ticket costs yesterday to Phoenix, Arizona. I checked the costs of hotels and I was about to search for apartments until I understood that it’s crazy to start searching now. I’m not sure if I wanna stay in Phoenix, but I searched it anyway. I’ve been to Phoenix, Arizona and it’s damn hot. Anyway, I’m kinda excited about the wish of moving to USA. What I’m probably will do is to move there for a year, go back to Norway for a year and if I miss the USA (which I probably will), I’ll move back. I don’t wanna move immediately if it seems like I ain’t gonna like it.

Argh, I can’t stop thinking about the video blogging. I gotta start soon. Why haven’t I started yet? I wanna vlog, now! I gotta find a name for the vlog if I’m gonna start. I can’t call it «Bjoernars vlog», I’m not satisfied with that. No one has participated to the contest of finding a name. Well, no one wants to win. If you have an idea, comment on «Win a Secret». I think I posted it in January. I was thinking about calling it Brilliant! , but there was some sort of an art group with that name before. I don’t know if it’s legal to use that kind of name if someone else has had it. Give me suggestions!!!

Well, that’ it for today. Stay tuned for more, and I’ll catch up with you.
 

1 comments:

Hanna said...

Sv: Skrivekurset var helt greit.. Ikke noe sensasjon, man lærte liksom bare to måter å skrive dikt på - ikke noe mer enn det. :-)
Åh, nå fikk jeg enda mer lyst på Mac! Lucky bastard. Kanskje du kan kalle videobloggen "talk to bjoernar!" ellernoe! haha, jeg er ukreativ :(